So...I know I'm a spoiled brat. I hate doing things I don't feel like doing, I'm naturally good at academics and don't try very hard at much in general. But I know I'm changing. I'm not the same person that I was even a year ago. I'm much better about doing things that need to be done, like work, without complaining (much). I used to think I hated people (I think this is because I am an introvert and never initiate friendships), but now I realize that I love them. Even in the face of possibly losing my dream of going to Japan soon, I became very upset about having to wait and getting left behind, and then I realized how ridiculous I was being. Just because I don't think I have enough money now, doesn't mean I won't eventually find a way. I don't have to give up completely because things aren't going how I want them to. I may be left behind by people that I love (two to Asia, one to the Ozarks) but I still love them and they still love me, and that's all that matters. I can take it day by day. I can live in the moment. And anytime I need to, I can fly away to Neverland and leave it all behind.

Tags: blah, people, school, work
Current Location: United States, Missouri, Lees Summit
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Nell

So I'm going to have to wait a little longer for Tokyo. It will be more like 10 months instead of 6, but I'm still excited. I wish I could think of ways to make extra money without getting a second official job. I'm working almost 40 hours a week as it is...

I made it! I have been officially accepted as a student at Temple University Japan (TUJ)! Oh. My. Gosh. I will be moving to Tokyo in about 6 months. Me. Moving to Japan. In six months. I'm sure that this blog will turn into an account of my adventures living overseas. Can't wait! Tokyo, here I come.

Tags: japan, tokyo, tuj

I realized how full 2009 was back when it was still August. I never knew that it would get even fuller. That year was so full of new experiences and was the cause of many hopes for the future, which I had not even considered until then. Okay, I am going to say it, although that cements the fact that everyone (or no one...depending on who sees this) will know either my shame or my joy sometime in the next month. Here it goes: I will know by February 1st whether or not I get to spend the rest of my college life in Tokyo. That's right, I applied to school in Japan. I'm so nervous I feel sick. I know I'll cry no matter what the outcome, so please just pray for my sanity. Onegai.

Tags: japan, school, tokyo
Current Location: Dining room table
Current Mood: nervous

Hello again, dear blogspot. I'm afraid I am a terrible blogger, but it isn't very encouraging when no one but yourself reads your blogs. It isn't like the privacy of a journal, so you can't just speculate about whatever you want. It gets dull when no one has anything to say about what you think. Hmmm. Had Christmas at my Grandparent's this morning. I'm very tired since I was woken entirely too early. I hauled in alot of good stuff though. My Aunt, Uncle and cousins got me a bunch of Tokidoki stuff, and my grandparents got me an Indian hanging candle/lamp thing. it's cool. They also got me a knitting book and a Japanese to English (and vica-versa) dictionary.
 
I would post a picture of the snow here, but I would have to hunt down batteries for my camera, and I'm sure that no one reads this anyway.

Hmmm...I feel that I should say something deeply philosophical, but I'm too tired. "Did you guys hear that high tinkling noise???" (Hachi)

The last drama I watched was a Korean one called "You're Beautiful," which was AWESOME. The main guy was one of the funniest characters on the face of the planet. I laughed so much throughout the whole thing. I highly recommend it. You can watch it on veoh, mysoju, or dramacrazy, though I personally recommend veoh.

Perhaps I shall blog again sometime-ish.

Tags: blog, christmas, drama, tokidoki, you're beautiful
Current Location: Crocker, MO
Current Mood: Namuui!
Current Music: Without Saying by 9th Street

Juu-kyu sai-des! (or in English, I'm 19 years old!) My birthday was on the 24th, and while I didn't do anything special to celebrate, I received some cool presents, as well as money to buy cool presents. *hehe* I will post pictures of my loot pile, even though I think it isn't complete yet.






In case you can't tell, I have a t-shirt with a panda eating a cookie from Forever XXI, a pair of boxers with gumball machines from Victoria's Secret, The Red Curtain Trilogy (which includes dvds of Strictly Ballroom, Romeo + Juliet, and Moulin Rouge, as well as a special features dvd), Once on dvd, Goku-tama Rock Cafe cd by An Cafe, Harajuku Dance Rock cd by An Cafe, four kinds of tea from Teavana (2 oz. each of White Ayurvedic Chai, Kuki Matcha, Emerald Bamboo Forest, and Kamiya Papaya Oolong), and my favorite, curtesy of my dearest Hachi, Virgin Snow (Hatsu-yuki no koi) on dvd! It is a great loot pile, if I do say so myself, and considerably bigger and better than any I've had in many previous years. It has been fun! (Tanashkiyata-des!)

Tags: 19, an cafe, birthday, cd, dvd, presents, virgin snow
Current Location: Living Room
Current Music: Distress and Coma by The GazettE

I have been to the center of the world, and it is called Shibuya. The brilliance of the lights, the movement, the color, the sounds, the feeling of rushing along the cross-walk from the station being jostled on all sides by people.

Tokyo was the most amazing experience of my life, and I can't wait to go back...

Tags: center, japan, people, shibuya, tokyo, world
Current Location: United States, Missouri, Independence

Well, it's come. I leave for Tokyo in about a day and a half. I almost don't believe it.  I will be on a plane for over 18 hours, staying in aforementioned city for just over 2 weeks, then flying all 18 hours back again. I'm going to be tired, happy and sad all at once. I have a very strong feeling that I shan't want to come home again...Ahhh, Tokyo! I hope I can post some pictures and such while I am there!

Tags: japan, pictures, tokyo, trip
Current Location: Bedroom
Current Mood: complacent

Yesterday was an amazing feast day. It began with part of a banana, an apple and a tortilla wrap, continued on into fruit smoothies (topped with icecream, mango, blueberry and fruity bunnies), chicken grilled to perfection, iced vanilla chai in GIANT teacups with frozen strawberries, lots of other tea (mostly English Breakfast), toast with honey and peanut butter, and was finished by two bowls of cheerios covered in milk and honey. *sighs in contentment* Hachi and I took turns using her jump-rope, which brought back memories and made me wish desperately that I had a hoola-hoop. We took our toast down to the gate in Bangladesh and talked and watched the moon for about 2 hours, before coming inside to watch psycho youtube videos and read wacked out interviews until our brains felt like mush. We were forced to muffle loud laughter at around 4ish, when watching the first episode of Sapuri. The sight of Kamenashi in a white cat suit wearing a pink bathing suit was too much for our melted minds.

This morning I awoke around 11 to the just finished scones and tea. I have such amazing timing....

I think I should be done talking about food now.

Tags: bangladesh, cheerios, feast, food, fruit smoothies, jump-rope, kamenashi, sapuri, tea
Current Location: My mind

I am so bored I could cry. *sigh* My lovely summer free from homework is overshadowed by the fact that my college paperwork is not done, and my mom keeps pestering me to get a job. YES Mom, I KNOW we're dirt poor. *SIGH* I think I would like being poor if it didn't involve miserable jobs. Maybe that's a condradiction...

Well, all of my classes have been signed up for next semester. I'm taking dreadful boring subjects like Bio, computer science and political science. YUCK. In order to balance myself out and still have enough credits to be fulltime, I am also taking group guitar for school credit. I hope that it will be interesting.

I'm sorry this was such a dreadful entry, I just felt like blogging and had nothing more interesting to talk about. (although I could mention the amazing music I'm listening to, which so far has included Coffee Prince OST and Skillet's Comatose album)

I guess I will leave you for now.

Tags: boredom, coffee prince, college, comatose, skillet
Current Location: living room
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Falling Inside the Black by Skillet